Gooder News

I am not dwelling so much on the accident, anymore. It is still a constant companion of mine, in that I do not sleep so much, but this is due to discomfort and physical pain, not the haunting emotional kind. So, if PTSD was a possibility, I seem to have left that behind.

Or buried it, which I hear is somewhat non-healthy.

Instead, I have this pain which is kind of like the temperature change. You know, when you're in the car and suddenly having the air on is too cold, and -not- having the air on is too warm. Or inside it's too chilly to not have a sweatshirt, but you put that sweatshirt on and five minutes later you're at the "Christ, it's warm in here..." point again.

The pain is like that. I am not a fan of prescription anything, let alone any medication that carries the warning "This drug can become addictive...", so I try to back away from stuff. The first week or so, the pain was so intense that Vicodin and I were fast friends. But now the pain isn't as intense anymore, so I eschew the Vic and take a few Tylenol. I might as well be popping a few Candy Corn, for all the good this does, but thankfully the pain is less than whatever my threshold is for going back to Vic.

Also, this constant pain-but-not-serious-pain affects my sleep. I can drop off easily enough, but I move around a lot during the night, and I have maybe 4 or 5 diff positions I usually sleep in. 3 of these are now off limits, as when I bring my body into alignment with them the pain comes back at Off The Charts levels. So, after a week and a half I am no longer waking myself up with pain because I've tried to sleepily roll into one of these kapu alignments; instead I find I'm waking up with the Bizarro dialog in my head "Hmmmmmm... -sure- would be nice to lay on my left hand side, wouldn't it? Wouldn't that be sweet? Yep. Wish I could do that."

Crazy, I know. But it puts a dent in my sleep. And I'm not the best sleeper to begin with.

There are of course much worse problems in the world, and much worse problems in my own life. This one is just kind of annoying, and I know it will go away.